I just realized I haven’t posted a decent photo of me in months, so here I am. Recently I’ve felt bad about myself physically. I know I shouldn’t and I’m not fishing for compliments, but working in an environment where I am right now, you can’t help but feel mediocre compared to the skinny legs and flat stomachs I see everyday.

I’m not going to lie, I want that. I wanna be so thin that even a size S is bigger than me, but then I start to think, would that make me happy? Do I wanna be thin because I want to be healthy, or just so I could parade in front of everyone and not feel left out? My mind has been arguing with itself for quite a while now and I can’t come up with a decent answer to that question.

All I really know now is I wanna be happy with myself. And I’m thinking that maybe after I post this blog, I’d be able to admit things more easily and not be embarrassed of my own thoughts.

I can do this.