BEST DREAM

You know how most people say they forget their dreams as soon as they wake up? Well, that seldom happens to me. In fact, I remember most of my dreams in very wild and vivid details that I sometimes mistake them for memories.

Today I had a great dream: I dreamt that I was Katy Perry, or atleast a body double of hers. She was going to have a concert in Araneta Coliseum and I was going to watch. For some unknown reason, I was there a couple of hours early and was allowed backstage where everyone was panicking because apparently Katy was missing. I looked around and found her hiding in one of the rooms, looking depressed. She turned to me and says something like, “I don’t want to do this show, you do it for me.” and I was obviously stunned. I mean, why me, right? I sing karaoke but I’m no Katy Perry.

Nevertheless, she ushers me to her makeup room and the artists made me over and when I looked at the mirror, I looked exactly like Katy (yes, even her body. HOW AWESOME IS THAT) and then they told me to prepare for the opening number which was California Gurls, I think but I can’t quite remember now. I teased the fans by going out of the curtain and waving a-la Marilyn Monroe and the crowd went crazy. Adrenaline was pumping and I started performing in all my Katy Perry glory and soon afterwards I knew something was wrong because I started signing Kylie Minogue songs.

I woke up smiling though because I am now motivated to exercise more, ‘cause the feeling of wearing anything and looking great was just absolutely impowering.

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So, I don’t mean to be narcissistic but I have to post this now :) I’m not even halfway through what I want to achieve but I’ve been seeing a few improvements. The photo in the left is me last November 2011 and the photo on the right is me ‘during’ my workout February 2012. I only started working out January of 2012 so for me this is an improvement already.
Just like what the tumblr famous quote said, “It doesn’t matter how slow you go, as long as you don’t stop.” :)

So, I don’t mean to be narcissistic but I have to post this now :) I’m not even halfway through what I want to achieve but I’ve been seeing a few improvements. The photo in the left is me last November 2011 and the photo on the right is me ‘during’ my workout February 2012. I only started working out January of 2012 so for me this is an improvement already.

Just like what the tumblr famous quote said, “It doesn’t matter how slow you go, as long as you don’t stop.” :)

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I just realized I haven’t posted a decent photo of me in months, so here I am. Recently I’ve felt bad about myself physically. I know I shouldn’t and I’m not fishing for compliments, but working in an environment where I am right now, you can’t help but feel mediocre compared to the skinny legs and flat stomachs I see everyday.

I’m not going to lie, I want that. I wanna be so thin that even a size S is bigger than me, but then I start to think, would that make me happy? Do I wanna be thin because I want to be healthy, or just so I could parade in front of everyone and not feel left out? My mind has been arguing with itself for quite a while now and I can’t come up with a decent answer to that question.

All I really know now is I wanna be happy with myself. And I’m thinking that maybe after I post this blog, I’d be able to admit things more easily and not be embarrassed of my own thoughts.

I can do this.

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thedecisiontochange:

Pretty much sums it up.

thedecisiontochange:

Pretty much sums it up.

Whatever I lack in life, I gain through my friends.

I always say that. When I become famous (If I ever become famous), I would say that quote in an interview and people will be posting that in their twitter updates. Haha.

It’s surreal, actually. I know I’m not really lucky in love most of the time and my work occassionally hates me, but my friends, my great friends, they love me. And for that, I am more than thankful.

And what’s more amazing is that I don’t even have just one group of friends, but somehow all my circles are filled with great people. These are people I can turn to when I’m sad, people that support me and my work, and people that believe in me and make me happy. These people, although not entirely connected to one another, they make me feel like I’m a great person. I’m not deserving of this kind of love, I swear. But somehow, no matter how awful I am, my friends love me.

This thought gets me through most of my days. I am so blessed. I don’t know what I’m doing to deserve this, but I must be doing something right.