So, I don’t mean to be narcissistic but I have to post this now :) I’m not even halfway through what I want to achieve but I’ve been seeing a few improvements. The photo in the left is me last November 2011 and the photo on the right is me ‘during’ my workout February 2012. I only started working out January of 2012 so for me this is an improvement already.
Just like what the tumblr famous quote said, “It doesn’t matter how slow you go, as long as you don’t stop.” :)
I have no regrets with my hair, I love it. Thanks to everyone that gave me advice last time. Have a great day :)
It’s my fucking birthday today!
And Norman Reedus gave me a fuckin’ virtual hug via twitter.
FUCK YEAH!
This is what I look like on the start of 2012.
I’m in my room waiting for something to happen. We don’t have fireworks, my parents are already sleeping, my brother is too lazy to sit up and do anything and me.. I am left like this. Hungry and waiting, for what exactly I am not sure.
I’m fed up with this, seriously. I want to be somewhere else. Don’t get me wrong, I love my family and it’s not their fault that they’re not into traditions like most people, but I feel like I want something more.
Please lord, please don’t let this be a sign of what’s to come. I have such high hopes for 2012.
I don’t want to be attached to anyone right now :)
I just realized this as I was looking at my recent pictures and twitter posts. I’m not ready for something that requires commitment aside from my work. If I could, I would marry my job (although I’m sure that relationship would not bear fruit).
That’s just how it is.
I met my college friends the other day (and I would’ve posted a photo of that instead of this one but they haven’t posted yet) and I was really surprised that some of them thought I looked good now (Look at the photo above and you’ll understand what I mean).
Seriously, I’m not sure if they told me that because they just missed me or what, but I really did appreciate it. I am happy now. Sometimes I can’t even believe that I’m this happy despite everything that I’ve been through since the start of this year. It’s true, what they say, time really heals all wounds.
I can’t really explain it without being overly dramatic or conceited but all I can say is I feel lighter, like I am not burdened by anything at all. Sure, some days I feel like crap and I drown myself in self-pity, but most of the time I feel optimistic. I remember the past but I no longer dwell in it like I used to.
Okay, I’ll be honest. Maybe the reason why I am ‘blooming’ is because I am in love again.
I am in love with my work, my friends, my family and most of all, I am head over heels in love with myself.
And I realize now as I am writing this, loving myself is one of the best things that I have ever decided to do.
How can you be true to yourself if you don’t know who you really are?